reclaiming worship music for the queers

reclaiming worship music for the queers

If there's one common thread that's been running through this entire year of 2018, it has to be the fact that everything about this year feels incredibly different and new than any other and in a different way than any other, something I've already talked a little about

Something that's been a big part of this unfamiliarity is perhaps how I finally found my way back to church and how it's finally become something meaningful again. I write a lot about being queer, and if you follow me at all on Twitter, you'll notice that I tend to float around the queer, progressive, #exvangelical circles. Those places have provided me virtual community I've never been able to find before, and at the same time, I know that my faith is still an integral part of my life and who I am. And for all the ways and times I've been burned by Christians and the church, there's something deep inside of me that reminds me that isn't who God is. And so I'm still here. I still call myself a Christian, albeit hesitantly sometimes, just because I know of all the different connotations and pictures people will get in their head associated with that word. But if there's been anything about organized Christianity that's been particularly sticky for me (anti-queer theology and the like aside), it's worship music and the often problematic relationship Christians have with it.

for the honor...

Today has been a really crazy day. I went public with this blog for the first time in three months, which is just insanity for me. I don't think people realized how unnerved I was and anxious for what the response would be (it was fantastic; all of you have been wonderful, and I'm so thankful for that). At the same time, the Lord gently nudged my spirit and reminded me to keep my eyes on Him and that this isn't about me or the words that I've written. So, in this really short post, I just want to thank everyone who has been really supportive of everything and also reiterate that none of this is my own doing. Everything that's written here, everything that has happened, every response has been by the grace and blessing of the Father. It's unreal. And trust me, nothing of what I've written here was by my own wisdom. I'm just a clueless human. Anything that anyone resonates with, anything that impacts any of you, it's all God. It's all Him. These are just things that He's been so kindly and patiently teaching me over the past few months. All the glory is His. All of it.

And it's been incredible. It really has. God has been so good in revealing His plan and His word to me, and I can honestly say that I've never felt closer to Him or stronger in my faith than right now. He is an amazing God. Don't ever forget.

Also, listen to this song, because I basically want this song to define my life and everything that I write here.

Jesus loves you. If you ever find yourself doubting that, please come talk to me. He loves you more than you could possibly imagine.


it is well

I haven't been around recently, just reblogging something here or there, and the reason for that is that I've been really stressed. It's been really bad. It just seems like everything is happening all at once and I can't really catch a break. So, I don't have a whole lot to share right now, but I do feel like God has been putting this on my heart to share with a few people recently, so I thought I would share it here as well. No matter what happens (and that can be a very wide spectrum of things for people like us), God has got us and we can say, "It is well with my soul."

I hope this is an encouragement to anyone who sees it. I just know that I've been going through a lot of stuff right now and that God has been trying to tell me to trust Him, because no matter what happens, it is well.