Life has been a little weird lately, and if I’m being honest, the entire last year has been a little weird. Obviously, we all know that 2019 has essentially shaped up to be The Onion taking literal form in our actual world, but on a smaller level, so many things have happened this year that feel like they’re directly out of a sitcom or a TV drama, and I don’t really know how to feel about all that.
And I think “weird” really is the best way to describe it, because nothing is necessarily wrong. It’s just that things also haven’t exactly turned out the way I thought they were going to either. In many ways, I feel like I’ve been living in the “dirty middle” as we therapists (or therapists-in-training) say, when you’re no longer where you started, but you’re also not quite at your destination yet. I feel like I’ve written about this before, but I think it’s come to a head more recently with all the things that I’ve been an observer to, more than anything.
In talking to my own therapist, we’ve discussed how most of the time, we tend to look to the people around us for social cues and life milestones in a sort of group mentality to establish what’s “normal” or “on time” for particular life events, but what happens when everyone around you has moved along to a different part of the “life road map,” if you will and you’re the only one left what feels like several hundred miles behind?